Q:Did you do something nice for hubby? Are you going to loosen the reins and try to build him back up? You have just crushed his manhood, it is going to take a lot of work and restraint on your part to fix things!
We have a lot to talk about.
The Dana thing, and how to handle it. Right now, I imagine she thinks I’m cheating on him with a black guy, which must be creating some level of confusion and torment for her; whether to tell my husband about it, etc. I don’t want her carrying that guilt, or being made to feel like she has to chose among loyalties.
I remember how confusing it was for me, when I was a little girl, and found out my mother was cheating on my daddy. Part of me wanted to tell him, part of me wanted to be loyal to her, part of me was afraid that if I tattled my mother would hate me, part of me wanted to just pretend I hadn’t seen anything, and that it wasn’t real.
It’s not fair to Dana to make her carry that, or make her feel like she has to pick a side. I think I (or my husband, or both of us) need to have a talk with her, and be honest about things; that we have an open relationship, that I have lovers, that my husband knows about it, and is okay with it.
We also need to talk about the Johnny thing, and what’s been going on there. Complications.
I just can’t seem to get control of the emotional aspects of my relationship with him. I want and need Johnny in my life, but I want it to be on my terms, not his. He’s been using the L word lately, which I’m not comfortable with, and got upset with me when I responded back with “I know you do, baby… and I love your cock, I love the way you fuck me.” I guess he wanted more.
At any rate, I need to get better control of my situation with Johnny.
I’m also concerned about my husband’s apparent lack of interest in young fresh pussy. That is entirely out of character for him. Something’s going on there that we need to talk about.
I think it’s a lack of confidence issue. He’s extremely self-conscious about his small penis now. And I think his premature ejaculation problem makes him anxious. He’s probably afraid of disappointing a woman and getting the kind of reaction he got from Emily. Her comments to him after he lasted all of ten seconds inside her before spurting really affected him (“maybe your wife’s right, maybe eating pussy is all you’re good for”) were hurtful to him. He felt humiliated.
I want him to have some sexual experiences with other women. I think it will help build up his confidence.
Then there is this new rather disrespectful attitude of his that keeps flaring up, which is probably a consequence of him not feeling my authority in over a month, and of my decision to free him from chastity while he’s in North Carolina. The latter might have been a mistake. He’s back to his filthy, chronic masturbation habit. I though by freeing him from chastity he’d go out and fuck other women. But instead he just jacks off like a little boy.
We need to talk. We need some face time. I need to listen to him. We need to freely and openly share our feelings.
I do need to build him back up. I need to help him with his confidence issues. I need to be loving and understanding and patient with him.
But I also need to be firm and direct. I need to remind him of my authority.
I need to make my expectations clear to him. I need to be more careful about communicating mixed messages to him. It’s probably unrealistic of me to expect that he’ll ever be anything more than a cuckold, anything more than a PussyBoy.
I’ve noticed that he tends to flounder when I give him choices. It’s like he’s not sure what to do. I think he’s often afraid of doing something wrong, disappointing or upsetting me, and being disciplined.
He seems to do better when I am clear and firm in my instructions, and don’t give him a choice. That seems to be easier for him.
Gina thinks my husband’s just a faggot now, and that I just need to get a cock back in his mouth. Perhaps that’s part of it, but it’s much more complicated than that.
I think he needs lots and lots of marital pussy. While I’m here, he’s going to get all he can handle. I brought a jar-full of his V pills, and plan to fuck his little dick off before I leave. Then I’m going to lock it back up.
More immediately… my husband needs to feel loved and appreciated and needed.
Tonight, I’m going to love and appreciate his face between my legs. By 11pm tonight, the marital pussy is gonna be all wet and creamy and cummy. I’m going to need my hubby to perform his cuckold duty and lick me out and clean me up after I fuck one of his new friends (who won’t know that I’m his wife).
Q:How did your husband react to your surprise visit?
He doesn’t know yet. He’ll find out tonight. I’m going to surprise him by just showing up at the bar that him and his business colleagues go after work. None of them are going to know who I am, or that I’m his wife, which gives me a chance to have some fun with it, ratchet up that cuckold angst of his.